Podcast Guests Rachelle Smith Podcast Guests Rachelle Smith

Broken Systems, Broken Hearts: Lakeydra’s Fight for Her Life

Lakeydra, an Air Force veteran, shares her powerful story of survival through betrayal, MST, and profound grief after losing her sister. In this gripping episode, she exposes the toxic military culture of alcohol abuse, systemic silencing, and trafficking, while charting her hard-fought journey toward healing, advocacy, and reclaiming her voice.

Lakeydra found herself trapped in a trauma cycle of alcohol and MST in a new duty station. Her breaking point came when faced with an unexpected and tragic loss that set her up for the fight for her life.

Lakeydra’s story exposes betrayal, grief, and her inextinguishable inner-light that propelled her toward healing and advocacy.


“It was back to back.”

In this gripping episode of The Silenced Voices of MST, Air Force veteran Lakeydra continues sharing her deeply personal journey of survival, betrayal, profound grief, and transformation. Her story spans nearly drowning in military culture steeped in alcohol and silence, the trauma of military sexual assault (MST), and the unbearable loss of her sister. With unflinching honesty, Lakeydra recounts how these intertwined traumas nearly cost her everything—but also sparked her fight to reclaim her voice and help others do the same. This is a story of standing up after being held down by institutional neglect.

Lakeydra describes her next assignment in South Korea, a period marked by overwhelming peer pressure. The heavy drinking culture, normalized toxic behaviors, and relentless push to conform left her vulnerable and isolated. She was betrayed by her wingman—a moment that shattered her trust and marked the continuation of her experiences of MST. While trying to deal with feeling completely numb, Lakeydra pulls back the curtain on human trafficking within the military, detailing how senior leadership facilitated exploitation and turned a blind eye to widespread abuse. Seeing that she could do nothing to help the exploited women, Lakeydra withdrew further into herself. Her grief deepened with the sudden, devastating loss of her sister—a moment that left her in a spiral of depression, isolation, and self-harm. Facing both external betrayal and internal collapse, Lakeydra reached her breaking point, confronting a mental health crisis that felt insurmountable.

Toxic Cultural Shifts in New Environments

Lakeydra paints a vivid picture of arriving in South Korea, unprepared for the cultural and environmental changes that would redefine her military experience. She unpacks how the pervasive alcohol culture created an unsafe and high-pressure atmosphere, where refusal to participate meant ostracization and ridicule. The deep impact of toxic environments on service members' mental health and well-being is something that wasn’t discussed because it’s perceived as weakness and “not belonging”.

The Cycle of Trauma and Systemic Betrayal Continues

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Lakeydra reveals the full extent of her MST experience, starting with the betrayal by someone she thought she could trust, then understanding how the military’s own structures failed her at every turn. She shares difficult details about the pattern of abuse, the denial of justice, and her growing awareness of a hidden world of trafficking enabled by those in power. 

What’s not widely known is these systemic failures and the dark undercurrents are still at play within our military.

Reaching Her Breaking Point

Lakeydra shares a defining moment in her life. Her heartbreaking account of losing her sister—a loss that compounded her trauma and left her feeling more isolated than ever. Her sister was present at Lakeydra’s basic training graduation, as mentioned in the previous episode. That was one of the last times she was full of happiness and pride in her abilities. She opens up about battling severe depression, experiencing harassment when she was at her most vulnerable, and making a serious attempt on her life. This is a searing look at the hidden toll these layered traumas take, not just in the moment, but for years after, and sadly, many do not get the chance to share their stories because of it.

Against all odds, Lakeydra found lifelines in community and advocacy. She describes the pivotal moment when an unfamiliar Master Sergeant came forward to support her, offering strength and understanding she had long craved. He helped her find help, ultimately saving her life. This surge of support reignited her will to fight—not just for herself, but for other survivors. Her commitment to building safe, empowering spaces for fellow survivors who are struggling to find hope has become the core of her mission.

“You have to remember your ‘why’.”
- Lakeydra

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Lakeydra’s experience is a rallying call to action. Her story exposes institutional betrayal, the hidden crisis of trafficking, and the devastating effects of unaddressed complex traumas. But take this to heart. Her story is an example of the almost miraculous healing power of support and community. Lakeydra’s journey shows that even in the darkest moments, there is still a dawn.

Links

This episode contains a few references to news articles and books that are listed below:

  1. 🔍 If you’re currently working through the VA Disability claims process, download our free toolkit that helps you get the rating you deserve: Get access now

  2. KeyFit

  3. The Pink Berets

  4. The Turning Point 

  5. Wounds to Wisdom: Healing Through Veteran and First Responder Narratives

  6. Boulder Crest 

  7. 1 in 6

If you need professional support. please contact:

  1. ☎️ SA Support for the DoD Community, contact the DoD Safe Helpline: https://www.sapr.mil/dod-safe-helpline

  2. ☎️ If you are in crisis or need immediate support, call the Veterans Crisis Line: 988, then 1


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Episode Trigger Warning Index

This episode contains references to the following topics. Please use this guide to skip if needed:

  • 01:18 - 02:29 Alcohol abuse and toxic drinking culture 

  • 02:32 - 02:50 MST and military inaction 

  • 02:54 - 04:10 Peer pressure, bullying, isolation 

  • 04:23 - 05:39 Sexual assault, betrayal, victim blaming 

  • 05:42 - 06:18 Further assault, deepening trauma 

  • 06:25 - 07:23 Depression, reluctance to disclose 

  • 07:44 - 08:18 Human trafficking, leadership complicity 

  • 08:24 - 10:19 "Juicy Girls," survivor guilt 

  • 11:02 - 14:10 Sister’s death, harassment, self-harm, suicidal thoughts 

  • 17:34 - 18:39 Supporting another MST victim, starting advocacy 

  • 19:31 - 20:34 Survivor silencing, victim blaming 

  • 26:08 - 26:43 Transition out of service, overdose mention, ongoing healing

Takeaways from Part 2

  • Military culture and peer pressure has lasting psychological effects.

  • Alcohol abuse normalization creates and insulates unsafe environments, especially for those unprepared or influenced by previous traumas..

  • MST survivors face systemic silencing and deep betrayal.

  • Personal grief and loss amplify the mental health crisis among service members.

  • Human trafficking within the military requires urgent investigation and accountability.

  • Advocacy, peer support, and community are critical tools for healing.

  • Institutional reform and trauma-informed care are essential for true change.

Reflection Journal Prompt

Has someone unexpected shown up in your life when you needed them the most?

Spend a few minutes after listening to reflect or journal. What did you feel during this episode? What are you still thinking about? What systems need to change — and what part could you play in that change?


Join the Conversation & Amplify Survivors

Want to talk through your experience? Or support someone else in theirs?

Join our private Facebook group: The Advocates of MST

Don’t forget. This conversation matters. And MSTy showed immense courage by telling her story. Please help us make sure her voice travels further: Leaving a written review on Apple Podcasts or wherever you get your podcasts helps elevate the visibility of the show for more survivors suffering in isolation and pain. A simple review can change another person’s life forever.

Leave a review on Apple Podcasts

Although this podcast is a great resource, it does not and should not replace care from a medical professional. If you’re in crisis or need someone to talk to:
Call the Veterans Crisis Line — 988, then press 1
Or go to the nearest emergency room.

You are not alone. We believe you. You matter.  

Next week, May 13, 2025, we speak with Gender Violence Institute founder, Chuck Derry, who offers insight into why MST has endured and exactly how to stop it.

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Podcast Guests Rachelle Smith Podcast Guests Rachelle Smith

How To Destroy an Airman in 60 Days

Air Force veteran Lakeydra Houston joined the Air Force to escape trauma and reclaim her life—but just 60 days after arriving at her first duty station, a trusted leader shattered her newfound self-esteem and confidence. In this raw survivor story, Lakeydra shares how military sexual trauma (MST), institutional betrayal, and a culture of silence forced her into a destructive trauma cycle. If you’ve ever wondered how fast the military can break someone, this episode is your answer.

She was starting to believe in herself again.
Then she encountered the first sergeant, the enforced silence, the laughter—
and everything she’d rebuilt began to fell apart.
Piece by piece. Trauma by trauma.

She rebuilt herself in basic training. Her first duty station shattered her again.


The Brutal Reality

Meet Lakeydra Houston, an Air Force veteran who joined the military seeking purpose after surviving childhood trauma. In this episode, she shares how basic training offered her confidence, but the career that followed delivered betrayal. From harassment and sexual assault by a predatory leader to numbing the pain through alcohol and enduring domestic violence, Lakeydra’s story is both harrowing and heartbreakingly familiar for many women in uniform.

Lakeydra describes her path into the military, which is a path many of us have walked. After struggling in college and coping with past trauma through volleyball, she decided to join the Air Force for a fresh start. Despite initial reluctance and the shock of September 11th, she found herself inspired by the recruiter’s promise of becoming a doctor or physical therapist—only to later discover she’d unknowingly signed an open general contract. Basic training was a culture shock, but it also gave her a sense of pride and purpose once she found her footing. Her transformation into a confident airman marked the first time she truly felt accomplished—until her assignment to Security Forces reintroduced the very violence she’d tried to escape.

The Punchline: Assaults, Silence, and Systemic Betrayal

She was reporting in, doing exactly what every new Airman does when they reach their first assignment. Lakeydra opens up about her horrifying encounter with a first sergeant who groped her suggesting she needed a “harmless” fix on her uniform. When she fled his office, a fellow airman warned her not to report him—because she had, and was being discharged for it. What’s worse: the men in Lakeydra’s unit already knew he had a reputation. They laughed about it. Lakeydra was silenced, shamed, and eventually pushed toward alcoholism as a way to cope. Surrounded by a toxic drinking culture and carrying a weapon every day, she was emotionally unraveling—and no one noticed. No one intervened.

Entering The Loop: Loss, Pregnancy, and Deployment

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The spiral continued. Lakeydra entered into a volatile relationship, became pregnant, and was deployed just six weeks after giving birth. She wasn’t physically or emotionally ready. While serving in Dubai, the violence and harassment continued—this time involving officers and friends too scared or ashamed to report what happened. Eventually access to alcohol was cut off, but not before the damage was done to numerous people. When Lakeydra got a call that her husband had been shot, she didn’t want to return home.

Somehow, being overseas felt safer than being with the man she didn’t trust.

Above All Else

Lakeydra’s story quickly exposes how a toxic command climate and male-dominated culture enabled repeat offenders to thrive while silencing survivors. For many, systemic betrayal compounds personal trauma.

If you’re still wondering if your pain “counts” or if you’re the only one—this episode proves otherwise. Lakeydra hopes her courage helps other survivors understand they’re not alone, and that they can get out of the loop that they’re stuck in with support and help from advocates, trustworthy leadership, and mental health treatment and services.

“Going to the military was my way to start over and feel like I had a purpose in life.”
- Lakeydra

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If you’re still wondering if your pain “counts” or if you’re the only one—this episode proves otherwise. Lakeydra hopes her courage helps other survivors understand they’re not alone, and that they can get out of the loop that they’re stuck in with support and help from advocates, trustworthy leadership, and mental health treatment and services.

Links

This episode contains a few references to news articles and books that are listed below:

  1. 🔍 If you’re currently working through the VA Disability claims process, download our free toolkit that helps you get the rating you deserve: Get access now

This episode contains a few references to news articles and books that are listed below:

  1. ☎️ SA Support for the DoD Community, contact the DoD Safe Helpline: https://www.sapr.mil/dod-safe-helpline

  2. ☎️ If you are in crisis or need immediate support, call the Veterans Crisis Line: 988, then 1


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Episode Trigger Warning Index

This episode contains references to the following topics. Please use this guide to skip if needed:

  • 1:36 Mention of CSA, drug use for coping

  • 3:30 -  4:56  Discussion of September 11th

  • 7:36 Mentions of loss of sister

  • 9:07 Mentions of loss of parent from gun violence

  • 09:49 - 10:59 Discussion of harassment/ SA, at tech school as a woman in male-dominated space

  • 11:26 - 22:39 Detailed discussion of SA’s, childhood trauma, abuse of power, predatory leadership, male peers making light of and committing SA, trauma responses to SA, self-blame, alcohol abuse, domestic violence, pregnancy, lost lives due to lack of mental health resources, witnessing a friend take their life, SI, deployment soon after giving birth, family members that were veterans of the Vietnam War and their mental health and coping with alcohol

  • 23:02 - 29:11 SA’s on deployment due to alcohol and abuse of power, feeling unable to report due to rank structure, feeling powerless to protect friends, domestic violence, gun violence, being stuck in a trauma cycle, lies and betrayal by spouse, alcohol abuse, financial abuse

Takeaways from Part 1

  • Lakeydra joined the Air Force to start over after trauma that occurred in childhood..

  • Basic training was a significant challenge for her, but ultimately led to a newfound sense of accomplishment and confidence in herself..

  • She faced harassment and assault during her service immediately and was warned to not speak up by another victim, while her male peers laughed about the perpetrator and his reputation for being “nasty”.

  • Coping with alcohol, and hiding in partying with everyone else became a way to numb her pain.

  • Mental health was not openly discussed in the military when she served.

  • Deployment and alcohol’s availability brought new gender-based challenges and experiences.

  • Support from leadership made a difference in her journey.

  • Seeking help and connecting with others is instrumental in traumatic situations.

  • Lakeydra's story emphasizes the need for mental health awareness in the military.

Reflection Journal Prompt

Have you ever felt like you were caught in a trauma loop or cycle?

Spend a few minutes after listening to reflect or journal. What did you feel during this episode? What are you still thinking about? What systems need to change — and what part could you play in that change?


Join the Conversation & Amplify Survivors

Want to talk through your experience? Or support someone else in theirs?

Join our private Facebook group: The Advocates of MST

Don’t forget. This conversation matters. And MSTy showed immense courage by telling her story. Please help us make sure her voice travels further: Leaving a written review on Apple Podcasts or wherever you get your podcasts helps elevate the visibility of the show for more survivors suffering in isolation and pain. A simple review can change another person’s life forever.

Leave a review on Apple Podcasts

Need Support?

Although this podcast is a great resource, it does not and should not replace care from a medical professional. If you’re in crisis or need someone to talk to:
Call the Veterans Crisis Line — 988, then press 1
Or go to the nearest emergency room.

You are not alone. We believe you. You matter.  

The final part in Lakeydra’s two part series goes live Tuesday May 7, 2025.

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Podcast Guests Rachelle Smith Podcast Guests Rachelle Smith

The Best Advice I Can Give About Surviving MST (MSTy’s Story | Part 3)

MSTy, an anonymous Marine Corps veteran, shares the second stage of struggles with mental health, learning about MST, and developing a tool to help survivors come forward and establish patterns of predatory behavior. This episode demonstrates the power of only one person saying, “No more!” and rallying more to stand with them against military sexual trauma and the military’s diligence in sweeping cases under the rug. Read the full story and access helpful resources.

How MSTy found peace in learning and embracing the positive relationships in her life after MST — her words of wisdom and advice for you.

In the final part of her story, MSTy’s insights about how trauma shaped her daily life over time—and how choosing joy every day, gratitude for close relationships and love, and continuously being inspired by books serve as inspiration for listeners and viewers.


Accountability Through Reported Patterns of Predatory Behavior

Parts 1 and 2 of MSTy’s story grimly reminded us of the harshest realities of MST. The pain and confusion of being in a new environment after being traumatized by people who seemed trustworthy and the harassment that followed. Sadly, that part was identical to every story shared on the podcast. Through the pain and beginning to heal, MSTy was able to create a digital crime map of MST, to begin the arduous process of unmasking hidden predators throughout our military’s history. She found a way for survivors to process and give a name and space to their pain even if they weren’t able to speak it aloud.

In Part 3 of her story, MSTy shares the quieter, more reflective side of surviving military sexual trauma: the everyday and long-term battles of healing, the ways she found comfort, and the choices she continues to make—every single day—to stay grounded and whole.

I don’t know who needs to hear this but…

We dive into the things most survivors don’t always talk about out loud: the long-term physical toll of trauma, how hard it is to “just be present” for the people you love, and the guilt that comes with realizing how much of your life has been lived in survival mode. MSTy talks about the books, the dogs, the positive memes—yes, even the ones that start with “I don’t know who needs to hear this…”—that kept her going when there weren’t any other tools.

This part of her story is not about the worst of what happened. It’s about the slow, stubborn, defiant act of healing anyway.

The People Who Stayed

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As she reflects on the decades she spent “winging it” before finding solace and education in therapy, books, and online communities, MSTy describes how her life improved because of the people who helped her see herself differently: a best friend in the military, a civilian coworker who never got tired of listening, and a husband who tells her, “I ain’t scared,” every time she worries she’s too much.

In the face of a culture that told her to be silent, their love was a was a mirror and a soft place to reaffirm herself when times got difficult to manage.

Make Time for Healing Today

This episode closes with the kind of wisdom you can only get from someone who’s lived through the long haul of unresolved trauma. MSTy shares the physical effects—tight muscles, inflammation, cognitive struggles—and the regret of waiting so long to start healing and how it impacted her relationships and bonds with her children.

Whether you’re just beginning or decades into this journey, her voice reminds us that healing can start at any moment—and you don’t have to be alone when it does.

“Make time for it today.” - MSTy

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MSTy’s final chapter isn’t about how the story ends—it’s about how survivors live through the in-between. She’s not here to be inspirational or dramatic. She’s here to be real. Her honesty about everyday coping tools and the physical price of trauma is a gift, especially for those who are just now starting to name their pain.

She wants listeners to know: you are not broken. And you’re not too late.

Links From This Episode:

This episode contains a few references to news articles and books that are listed below:

  1. MSTy’s website: https://mstmap.com/

  2.  Man’s Search for Meaning by Viktor Frankl

  3. The Power of Positive Thinking by Dr. Norman Vincent Peale

  4. The Untethered Soul: The Journey Beyond Yourself by Michael Alan Singer


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Episode Trigger Warning Index

This episode contains references to the following topics. Please use this guide to skip if needed:

  • (00:14 - 00:31) On-screen details of MST markers

  • (01:26 - 01:33) Mentions of mental health conditions like dissociation and panic attacks

  • (11:25 - 14:22) Discussion of long-term physical toll, regrets about not being emotionally present

Takeaways from This Conversation

  • Every marker matters in the healing journey.

  • Books and pets can be powerful coping mechanisms.

  • Gratitude and positivity are essential for mental health.

  • Finding supportive communities is crucial for healing.

  • It's important to prioritize emotional wellness.

  • Trauma can have long-lasting physical and cognitive effects.

  • Starting the healing journey is possible with available resources.

  • Support from loved ones can make a significant difference.

  • Sharing experiences can help others feel seen and heard.

  • Your voice can drive change and accountability.

Reflection Journal Prompt

What did MSTy’s voice help you realize about your own?

Spend a few minutes after listening to reflect or journal. What did you feel during this episode? What are you still thinking about? What systems need to change — and what part could you play in that change?


Join the Conversation & Amplify Survivors

Want to talk through your experience? Or support someone else in theirs?

Join our private Facebook group: The Advocates of MST

Don’t forget. This conversation matters. And MSTy showed immense courage by telling her story. Please help us make sure her voice travels further: Leaving a written review on Apple Podcasts or wherever you get your podcasts helps elevate the visibility of the show for more survivors suffering in isolation and pain. A simple review can change another person’s life forever.

Leave a review on Apple Podcasts

Need Support?

Although this podcast is a great resource, it does not and should not replace care from a medical professional. If you’re in crisis or need someone to talk to:
Call the Veterans Crisis Line — 988, then press 1
Or go to the nearest emergency room.

You are not alone. We believe you. You matter.  

The final part in MSTy’s three part series goes live Tuesday April 15, 2025.

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Podcast Guests Rachelle Smith Podcast Guests Rachelle Smith

If Victims Were Afraid Then, Predators Should Worry Now (MSTy’s Story | Part 2)

MSTy, an anonymous Marine Corps veteran, shares the second stage of struggles with mental health, learning about MST, and developing a tool to help survivors come forward and establish patterns of predatory behavior. This episode demonstrates the power of only one person saying, “No more!” and rallying more to stand with them against military sexual trauma and the military’s diligence in sweeping cases under the rug. Read the full story and access helpful resources.

How MSTy designed a new tool that helps survivors track abuse, expose patterns, and take back their power — one marker at a time.

Survivors can take their power back with this map — and that includes you.


Accountability Through Reported Patterns of Predatory Behavior

MSTy didn’t set out to become the creator of an innovative and accurate way to hold the perpetrators of Military Sexual Trauma accountable. Like many survivors, she was  mostly trying to get through the aftermath of her encounters with avoidance and unhealthy coping until she found education and therapy. Survivors can especially understand wanting to only seek peace after having their lives disturbed so violently and abruptly, often without support for many years until that became unbearable as well.

In learning about complex PTSD and dissociation as a coping skill, she understood that silence and pretending her traumatic events hadn’t happened wouldn’t make the events magically disappear. It didn’t make it easier, because her trauma appeared in her life in other ways when she least expected or wanted it to.

In Part 2, MSTy shares what happened after her assaults — the disorientation, the dissociation, and the dark spiral that followed. But this time, she’s guiding listeners along her path to healing and discovering a brilliant method to help more survivors speak up. She’s sharing her way, possibly your way, of fighting back against this toxic cultural issue in our military.

MSTy introduces a powerful data driven crime map, born from her own story: a digital map that plots MST incidents across the world — Every marker represents a survivor. Every marker is a story that someone felt they had to keep quiet. Until now.

Finally Understanding She Wasn’t Alone

After MSTy’s terrifying and confusing assaults and harassment, she began documenting what happened — first in her diary, then in her mind, and eventually in a way that others could connect with too.

She speaks about living in a fog of dissociation, turning to alcohol, and losing trust in everything and everyone around her — including herself. But slowly, over time, something shifted.  She courageously chose to go back to serving, in the Air Force after September 11th. This new direction with better peers, more opportunities to be the servicemember she knew she could be, and to be able to guide younger Airmen was a source of peace and redemption. A second chance. And upon retiring from both military and civilian work, she turned her focus to healing from MST. The more she learned about MST, the more she realized how common this was — and how often it was expertly covered up, completely ignored, or viciously downplayed.

That’s when the idea for the MST Map found its way.

Using Patterns to Isolate Predators

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The MST Map isn’t just about stories — it’s about patterns. As MSTy began collecting survivor submissions, she saw its potential. Imagine if we could isolate the similarities: the same bases, the same patterns. Different people. Different years. But the same violence.

Consider this. As an example, let’s say a certain recruiter was stationed in an area for 4 years and there are numerous cases of MST reported on the map in that specific time period, and the person was described the same way by all victims… by process of elimination, this map makes it possible to finally validate a victim’s pain.

She and Rachelle discuss how documenting these stories can visually give survivors a sense of power and justice. Most markers are anonymous, while others contain comments of what happened in more detail. But all of them say the same thing: This is real. And it’s everywhere. 

The more markers, the better the opportunity to zero in on the people that caused so much pain but managed to slip by, protected by their leadership often to the serious detriment to the lives destroyed in their wake.

Demonstrating the Magnitude of MST

MSTy opens up about how watching the shock toward and spread of Vanessa Guillén’s story pushed her into action. She talks about the exhaustion of fighting the VA disability claim system while still wrestling your own shame. The pain of being invalidated online. The rage of watching predators get promoted or thriving while survivors are barely staying alive each day.

And the hope that something like the map might finally turn anecdote into evidence. Patterns into pain. Well-kept secrets into cleansing truth.

“This map isn’t just data. It’s how we get change, accountability.” - MSTy

Every marker is a defining moment that someone chose to speak up.

By the end of the episode, MSTy reflects on what it means to keep going — to build something for others even when the process hurts. She and Rachelle talk about accountability, prevention, and the fact that every survivor who shares their story makes it a little harder for systems to pretend they don’t know.

This isn’t just a tool. This is a reason for perpetrators to finally begin to feel the same fear that every survivor has felt daily since their lives were changed forever.

Links From This Episode:

This episode contains a few references to news articles and books that are listed below:

  1. MSTy’s website: https://mstmap.com/

  2. Marine Who Published Memoir About Alleged Sexual Abuse of Underage Recruit Faces Court-Martial by Drew F. Lawrence | Military.com 

  3. 'A Betrayal': How a Decorated Army Officer Fell from Grace in a University ROTC Sex Scandal by  Steve Beynon | Military.com


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Episode Trigger Warning Index

This episode contains references to the following topics. Please use this guide to skip if needed:

  • 12:54 -  Mention of Vanessa Guillén 

  • 13:06 - Mentions of dissociation/mental health struggle 

  • 13:22 - Compensation and Pay Exam 

  • 13:45 - Mentions of Complex PTSD/mental health struggle

  • 15:10 - Explanation of MST Map Website 

  • 15:31 - All types of SA named 

  • 15:50 - Mention of MST victims of recruiters 

  • 16:22 - Marine Corps recruiter predator news article  

  • 16:41 - Army ROTC LT COL predator news article discussed 

  • 17:16 - 17: 45 - Unreported cases of MST 

  • 17:49 - 18:29 - Markers displayed on the map of incidents 

  • 20:02 - 22:08 Trolls invalidating MST on social media 

  • 22:24 - 22:36 - Feelings of shame, isolation, and paranoia 

  • 23:11 - 24:47 - Describes how MST occurs around the world and in different situations illustrated by map markers can identify perpetrators over time

Takeaways from This Conversation

  • Creating a map for MST allows survivors to share their stories anonymously and still establish patterns of predatory behavior.

  • Personal healing often involves confronting past traumas.

  • Predators often look for naive, trusting individuals with weak boundaries.

  • Dissociation can be a coping mechanism for trauma survivors.

  • Data mapping can help identify patterns of abuse and accountability.

  • Survivors often feel isolated for years due to shame and stigma.

  • Accountability is crucial for creating change in the military.

Reflection Journal Prompt

What would accountability look like if survivors led the conversation?

Spend a few minutes after listening to reflect or journal. What did you feel during this episode? What are you still thinking about? What systems need to change — and what part could you play in that change?


Join the Conversation & Amplify Survivors

Want to talk through your experience? Or support someone else in theirs?

Join our private Facebook group: The Advocates of MST

Don’t forget. This conversation matters. And MSTy showed immense courage by telling her story. Please help us make sure her voice travels further: Leaving a written review on Apple Podcasts or wherever you get your podcasts helps elevate the visibility of the show for more survivors suffering in isolation and pain. A simple review can change another person’s life forever.

Leave a review on Apple Podcasts

Need Support?

Although this podcast is a great resource, it does not and should not replace care from a medical professional. If you’re in crisis or need someone to talk to:
Call the Veterans Crisis Line — 988, then press 1
Or go to the nearest emergency room.

You are not alone. We believe you. You matter.  

The final part in MSTy’s three part series goes live Tuesday April 15, 2025.

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